Depression Monster: Conquer or be Devoured

When does darkness creep in?
Not when we are born that is for certain,
and yet some point between then and when full self awareness sets in
it has managed to infect us before we even realize what the darkness is.
 
Seeping in from the air like spores of poison.
All the while we are unaware until the moment it makes itself known.
To force itself up into our throats as we choke upon it
Choking as it locks in the throat
preventing ability to cry out for aid.
 
No chance for a helping hand to grab hold to pull you back from it before you are infected.
Nay, it sinks down in like a cancer to the very marrow of bones.
Churning your stomach as you feel the heaviness set in. 
 
Sitting like a heavy weight ball placed upon one's chest
the air hits the throat only to be trapped within it
as the darkness seems to weigh upon your very bones.
Turning body to lead
blood running cold
the echo of existence thundering like drums in the ears.
 
Continuing to feel air trapped 
oxygen deprived yet body forced to focus on remembering how to breath
in that moment two choices and only two
 
1. to breath, conquer the darkness and reclaim existence
or
2. give in and gasp as your consciousness slips away as darkness takes over vision until all sense is lost.
 
Will you remain in the dark and surrender existence
or wake to the beep and regain life?
 

(C) Bluefire Night